Everything and Nothing
I want to do everything and nothing all at once. I absolutely adore when I have free time. It used to be the opposite. When I felt like I had nothing to live for I only wanted to eat, sleep, and do things with friends. I relied solely on external factors to get any fulfillment in life. However, more and more I've come to enjoy my time spent alone. Not only do I like doing important things by myself, but I enjoy the time just living. Just this weekend I spent so much time driving around the city and staying at different houses that I hardly noticed the downtime. And yet, it was mostly all downtime. I've realized that moving forward doesn't always involve doing anything huge. On the contrary, any time spent enjoying life is not time wasted. On most weekends nights I spend lots of time watching anime. Some would see it as a waste, but I do get fulfillment out of it. And to me it's a way to show how far I've come. I do almost anything I want and feel fulfilled. On the ...