Dear Winter

The frigid of the winter eats away at my entire body, and the early darkness dims my soul.

The outdoor activities that fill me with excitement during the summer become impossible, and so I sit inside with nothing to do.

The "most wonderful time of the year" brings out the crazy in people, and shoppers drain all my energy.

Snow and ice cause more trouble than fun, making everyday actions perilous. 

Dear Winter, you are not the season for me, and you can't go away quick enough. Maybe you will be more bearable next year, but until then I yearn for Summer's warmth and energy.

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